Bittersweet; arousing pleasure tinged with sadness or pain.
The past 6-8 months has been bittersweet. A relationship of 5 years ended. I went on 2 amazing holidays; Greece and Hawaii. My Budgie Pookie who I had a strong bond with died. People have been amazingly generous. My moods haven’t been my best. I’ve been spending more time with family. I met someone new who is thoughtful and such a wonderful soul.
Not sure what’s next, but I guess that’s the magical part. Staying positive and patient. Meditating, praying and remembering to be *grateful*.
Unfortunately most of us these days want to control that which is not in our control, thinking this will bring us happiness. “When I get ‘this’ I will be happy.” The only control we really, truly have, is that of our inner self. We don’t need to seek happiness from the outside.
I will lose a lot of you after the third line unfortunately. Focusing within is quite confronting for some. However, if we can make a daily habit of it, amazing results will come. The more aware we are, the more we understand ourselves. You might ask what I mean by that. If we stop, and stand still in solitude, we get in touch with something within us which is quite magnificent. Our soul. Did I lose you now? If not, that’s awesome.
Our soul is what ignites us. It is who we truly are once we stop and reflect. However, most of us don’t take the time to do this. If most of us were told to take out a pen and paper and write down our thoughts for a minute or so, most of us would be hesitant. We should ask ourselves why that is.
So, get out a pen and paper. Do it. See how you feel. It might feel amazing. It might feel terrible. Do it nonetheless. This is a way to reflect and really try to connect with our wonderful souls. Be open to the answers which may come.
Some snippets from my birthday celebrations in Hawaii last month! One of my mantras for this year is to *enjoy the little things*!!!
While I was away my beautiful pet bird was sick (now he is in a better place). I was so distraught but I HAD to keep a smile on my face and remember that life is beautiful and meant to be enjoyed. I knew he wanted me to be happy.
Like I said on my instagram, his life and death has brought me joy and sorrow, and in his memory I will embrace life, spend time & appreciate the wonderful souls I have in it! J xxx